A letter to the self-claimed petty Ah Pek:Finally... a long waited response from you...
felt both relieved and alittle upset....
relieved that you have chosen to share your burden with God,
and upset because this thing happened....
and it somehow shattered many hearts out there....of course,
this includes me too... and frozen our friendship for a couple of days before we received ur sms....
how should i say?
these days ... since that fateful night.... i've been anxiously wondering what happened to u...
how u feeling right now... are you better....
think i've bugged cindy till she's surrendering....ha...
wrote my apologies up here... yar... noe apologies dun help...
but i Want you to noe that i dun feel good either...
i think if one FTM member is upset or hurt,
the rest FTMians' hearts shattered too...
i wanted to meet u all that whole week.
for supper... for tok cok session... for movies... anything.
i guess it's the only motivation for me during that week!
wanted to tell u how my kids are n stuffs.
then on friday i received ur sms... saying u can only meet us after 9pm...
and i am already rotting in suntec since 3pm after the exhibition....
dunnoe what i should do??? go home or stay put n wait for u all??
suddenly felt lost... called chujie n she told me she's not coming...
then min oso dunnoe if she wants to meet me??
then i thought of the next day... weekends burnt becos of stupid staff day!!
more sian!!!
that's why i sms u guys... telling u i am not going...
but i am definitely not feeling good too!!!
after many days of wondering how u are... sending u sms and writing in ftm blog...
and not getting much response except that "peace wif u" and "share my burden wif god" sms...
i got disappointed.
more disappointed n both alittle angry when i saw ur blog.
esp. when u seemed to deny our efforts for the group becos i didn't show up on fri...
didn't expect such a big blowup over this "no-show" thing.
there's so many things i wanted to talk to u, but i couldn't.
wanted to empathise wif how u feeling. but i couldn't tok to u.
will u be willing to tok to me then?
this makes me feels that FTM foundation is only near zero.
and "motivated" me to write in my blog abt how i'm feeling...
why am i saying these things...??
hmm.. cos i don't want to tell u from a 3rd person...
at least let u understand... then put a full stop to it.
now it gives me the creeps whenever i make promises to people.
at least u let me learnt my lesson...
a rather painful one indeed.
at the expenses of almost losing a friendship i always valued...
maybe alittle more consideration, alittle more punctual, alittle more understanding,
and alittle more care and concern is FTM's motto for the year....
haa....
*joking* if sorry got use, need police for what!!!
hahaha!!!
told u i'm ONLY
JOKING!!! *RUNS FOR LIFE*
~ the runaway monkey~ xin xin