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* Sunday, July 31, 2005 *
Wende n Chujie,
guess it muz be a tough n tiring period for u two...hope everything is well for u two...remember to call us if u need ani help...
tk good care of urselves n send my regards to ur dad...
FTM will always be ard to support u.
Rgds,
Min :)
* Monday, July 25, 2005 *
An Eventful Weekend!
Wow! The weekend seems to fly pass so quickly. We started the weekend going to watch movies under the stars(well, i actually only saw fireworks and those "noise pollution" jet planes!) and ended with watching,staring and even "touching" Gigi Leung! Phew...I'm still trying to grapse for air here. Once again, our FTM outing has been successful "executed"!We even have a "intruder" on our movie date! Gave me a shock somemore, thought one of you gals is attached! But i must say again, this James guy is good-looking! Go for it women!
I must say a few thank you's here though : - Thank you Chujie for preparing the nuggets, the chicken wings and drumlets(Chujie, I pity those chickens that you threw into the plastic bag......*sobs*,salute the nice chickens!), the potato salad(me and Cindy finished all of them!Ha...) and of course for paying for our movie tickets! A thousand & million THANKS! Thank you Kexin and Huimin for accompanying me to see Gigi! Without you 2, I don't think I will be so crazy to go there with my big photo frame and to take those photos! Thanks Kexin for giving up the poster to me! A thousand & million THANKS! Thank you Wende for bringing another "crapper" to FTM outing. Always seem to have "yandao" navy fren huh bro?! Thank you Baolin for taking photos of Fort Canning and our one and only group photo with your "low-batt but still can take one more pic" camera on Sat! Pls upload them asap ya?! Last but not least, all these events, esp. Gigi's autograph session! cannot be achieved without Cindy giving me her blessings! Thanks Dear!
Till the every every near future when we meet up....AGAIN! YEAH!
^ - ^ MYKK
Can't get Gigi to pose with us, so we took 933 DJ Liyi!
Wow! The weekend seems to fly pass so quickly. We started the weekend going to watch movies under the stars(well, i actually only saw fireworks and those "noise pollution" jet planes!) and ended with watching,staring and even "touching" Gigi Leung! Phew...I'm still trying to grapse for air here. Once again, our FTM outing has been successful "executed"!We even have a "intruder" on our movie date! Gave me a shock somemore, thought one of you gals is attached! But i must say again, this James guy is good-looking! Go for it women!
I must say a few thank you's here though : - Thank you Chujie for preparing the nuggets, the chicken wings and drumlets(Chujie, I pity those chickens that you threw into the plastic bag......*sobs*,salute the nice chickens!), the potato salad(me and Cindy finished all of them!Ha...) and of course for paying for our movie tickets! A thousand & million THANKS! Thank you Kexin and Huimin for accompanying me to see Gigi! Without you 2, I don't think I will be so crazy to go there with my big photo frame and to take those photos! Thanks Kexin for giving up the poster to me! A thousand & million THANKS! Thank you Wende for bringing another "crapper" to FTM outing. Always seem to have "yandao" navy fren huh bro?! Thank you Baolin for taking photos of Fort Canning and our one and only group photo with your "low-batt but still can take one more pic" camera on Sat! Pls upload them asap ya?! Last but not least, all these events, esp. Gigi's autograph session! cannot be achieved without Cindy giving me her blessings! Thanks Dear!
Till the every every near future when we meet up....AGAIN! YEAH!
^ - ^ MYKK
Can't get Gigi to pose with us, so we took 933 DJ Liyi!
* Wednesday, July 20, 2005 *
Can we buy food!?
- Chicken Wing.
- Drinks.
- SNacks.. like potato chips
Yum! This weekend movie will be so fun! YA!
Cindy
- Chicken Wing.
- Drinks.
- SNacks.. like potato chips
Yum! This weekend movie will be so fun! YA!
Cindy
* Friday, July 15, 2005 *
Hello FTMians,
As you all should know by now, my blood pressure is high and I've been having dizziness since last Wed. At first, I thought the dizziness will go away and my blood pressure will go down. But I'm wrong. Today, I went back to the doctor and again my blood pressure was high (130/98). I was still having dizziness. The doctor suggested I go to see a neurologist(a doctor who specialized in seeing nerves, or...making me nervous!)
My blood test result is out. If you don't know, there's blood in my saliva every morning when I spit. But Thank God, the blood test result show I'm not suffering from Leukemia. But...I need to go for an X-ray this Sat to make sure everything is fine with my lung and throat.
You see, life is so happening right??
Ha... ... Just to tell you all, must take care of your health! You know, when I raised my voice in class, I can actually feel my blood pressure going up course my neck becomes stiff. Even if I pretend that I'm angry in front of the kids,I still feel like giddy.
The scenario in class : If I don't raised my voice, the class become noisier and I feel giddy. If I raised my voice, the class become quieter but I still feel giddy. Alamak, MAH FAN right??!! SHANG NAO JIN right??!!
The motive of writing this blog is more than just updating myself to you people, but a WARNING to you all. Never take our health for granted! Therefore, don't get angry easily with your kids, don't sleep late, eat healthy and remember HEALTH comes first!(What is work ?? Heck care! )
Big SIGH... What's Next??
Just Me, MYKK
As you all should know by now, my blood pressure is high and I've been having dizziness since last Wed. At first, I thought the dizziness will go away and my blood pressure will go down. But I'm wrong. Today, I went back to the doctor and again my blood pressure was high (130/98). I was still having dizziness. The doctor suggested I go to see a neurologist(a doctor who specialized in seeing nerves, or...making me nervous!)
My blood test result is out. If you don't know, there's blood in my saliva every morning when I spit. But Thank God, the blood test result show I'm not suffering from Leukemia. But...I need to go for an X-ray this Sat to make sure everything is fine with my lung and throat.
You see, life is so happening right??
Ha... ... Just to tell you all, must take care of your health! You know, when I raised my voice in class, I can actually feel my blood pressure going up course my neck becomes stiff. Even if I pretend that I'm angry in front of the kids,I still feel like giddy.
The scenario in class : If I don't raised my voice, the class become noisier and I feel giddy. If I raised my voice, the class become quieter but I still feel giddy. Alamak, MAH FAN right??!! SHANG NAO JIN right??!!
The motive of writing this blog is more than just updating myself to you people, but a WARNING to you all. Never take our health for granted! Therefore, don't get angry easily with your kids, don't sleep late, eat healthy and remember HEALTH comes first!(What is work ?? Heck care! )
Big SIGH... What's Next??
Just Me, MYKK
* Wednesday, July 13, 2005 *
Whew!! It has been a long long time since i wrote anything here again!!
Hahaha but so touched to see the overwhelming replies and helplines!!!
Yeah!!
Hahaha but so touched to see the overwhelming replies and helplines!!!
Yeah!!
It's like i'm on the verge of drowning and i see one lifeline for me... Not one but two..three..four...six!
haha!! Is this wat they called the "FTM SPIRIT"??
WOO!! 3 CHEERS!!
haha... thanks guys for the efforts in cracking your brain, squeezing all your brain juice, frantically posting up beautiful pics for me!!!
reallie appreciated the efforts!!
haha!!
These few days have been OK for me...
At least for awhile lah...
Today kana one complaint (nah should be accusation) letter from a parent.
A-N-G-R-Y is the word!!
Want to fight it out with the parent liao.
Luckily Chujie the heroin came to my help, called me and calmed me down.
Hahaha.
Okie lah shall update u guys with the details when we meet.
(Yeah! this shall motivate us alittle to meet asap right?????) hahaha....
Okie at least i learnt alittle on motivating students....
But not pro at motivating adults leh!
haha... thanks guys for the efforts in cracking your brain, squeezing all your brain juice, frantically posting up beautiful pics for me!!!
reallie appreciated the efforts!!
haha!!
These few days have been OK for me...
At least for awhile lah...
Today kana one complaint (nah should be accusation) letter from a parent.
A-N-G-R-Y is the word!!
Want to fight it out with the parent liao.
Luckily Chujie the heroin came to my help, called me and calmed me down.
Hahaha.
Okie lah shall update u guys with the details when we meet.
(Yeah! this shall motivate us alittle to meet asap right?????) hahaha....
Okie at least i learnt alittle on motivating students....
But not pro at motivating adults leh!
HOW HOW???
Hahaha...
Okie stop the crap here...
Noe everyone will have a busy week ahead of u...
we work 6 days!! not 5 days!! should have more O.T pay right!!
hahaha....
Work hard, but rest well and play hard too.
Tomoro shall always be brighter, sunnier, more challenging but also more rewarding.
Take care of ur bodies!!
Miss ya pple...
Xin~*
Hahaha...
Okie stop the crap here...
Noe everyone will have a busy week ahead of u...
we work 6 days!! not 5 days!! should have more O.T pay right!!
hahaha....
Work hard, but rest well and play hard too.
Tomoro shall always be brighter, sunnier, more challenging but also more rewarding.
Take care of ur bodies!!
Miss ya pple...
Xin~*
* Sunday, July 10, 2005 *
My P1 last year...they can be cute if they want to...:)
Sharing Session???
Wow...r there rilli such horrifying kids in sch nowadays??? phew...i shld rilli count myself lucky then...after reading wat Jingjie has written....i benefitted alot from it too...haha...thanx chariman...maybe u can clock into traisi for conducting this sharing session on classroom management...hee...with regard to 'violent' students...my method of handling is the same as jingjie...i will tell the fearful consequences of their doings...most of the time they do it cos they dunno the consequences...like i always like to ask them bout charity progs eg.NKF Cancer Show...whether they saw the young kids like them suffering from illnesses...then i will jie ti fa hui....the boy who has cancer lost his limbs...can u imagine how will he feel? if u play on the staircase or trip ur fren n he lost his legs....would u want to exchange ur limbs? they somehow got wat u r trying to say...try using this method for ur violent ones...
as for the other trouble makers...i believe for lower pri...they need individual attention...however we are unable to give them in class...tats y i will ask the pupil who's giving mi trouble to follow me to the staff rm straight after lesson...given the changed environment in the staff rm...and only mi n him...he will be able to listen to wat i say beta...normally after the talk in the staffrm...wheneva he is trying to b up to mischeif in class...i juz need to give him a glance n he will get wat i mean...i tink the most impt thing is he noes u want the best out of him...if a teacher cares...the student can feel it...patience...we need alot of it...u juz started...things wouldnt change so fast...give urself more time n of cos the kids as well...
its juz my personal experience...hope it works for u...rem, we have to be firm...firm with everyone single one...firm with expectations...firm with rules...firm with equal punishment...
JIA YOU!
\('v')/ min
Quash Them!!
Wow! I have to re-read your blog cos' I can't believe these 4 "heavenly kings" are only P1 !!! Quash them to... @#$^&!!! HaHa...
Ok, problem solving time... If you think your colleagues are not able to listen to you, why don't you find your HOD, P or VP? Since you are a new teacher, you always have the access to a "not able to handle these kids well since I'm new!" LICENCE! Don't be afraid to tell them. After all, from the way you described, they really sound like some kind of monster released from the other part of the universe! I think even senior teachers will have a terrible time handling them! Find out what kind of a person your P is. If her mentality is "Ai Xin Jiao Yu", then try to work that way too. But I tell you, most of my old colleagues hate this kind, cos' when you spare the rod, you spoil the kids!
To those kids who try to harm their classmates, leave them to sit alone. Tell them the consequences of their actions in the most scariest and exaggerating way after scolding them! This works for me! I once told them the consequences of him pinching his classmate- I told this boy "the part you pinched will swell, then it will turn so red till your blood will ooze out. Then your classmate will have to be sent to the hospital. In the end, if it doesn't cure, you will lose your classmate, your classmate's parents will come after you!" They are so scared now that they don't dare do anything harmful in class!
To those kids who stand up and walk to you, tie them to their chair! Nope, just joking lah... try telling them in a nice way that that's not right. If they still don't listen, just ignore them the next time they try to get your attention. Soon, they will find you not fun to attract their attention anymore and their actions will fade away.......
But always remember these matters :
1)Don't beat them! No use getting ourselves into trouble. If they still don't think, then just ignore them. Anyway, Kexin, if we teach don't well, we still get paid!I'm not trying to discourage you from moulding the next generation of well-brought up beings, just that sometimes we need to think for ourselves too. We don't need to bring more problem to our lives when we already have so much of them right!?
2)Don't be frightened by them! Show them who is the boss in the class! Once they know, they will obey you! Don't cry in front of them! Not very use! Maybe the P5 or P6(not the whole class) will sympathize with you.
If all things fail...go back to point 1. We still get paid every month no matter how these brats torture our lives. Try to pretend you are angry, after all, they are just kids! Small kids! We can just "Fen Si" them so easily, and throw them into the Kallang River! HaHa...Don't need to become angry unnecessarily. Not worth it man!
All the above mentioned are true to what the auther has used but don't ever hold him responsible if your actions turned out to cause you more harm than good... = P
Shoo...SiAm!!!
MYKK san
Wow! I have to re-read your blog cos' I can't believe these 4 "heavenly kings" are only P1 !!! Quash them to... @#$^&!!! HaHa...
Ok, problem solving time... If you think your colleagues are not able to listen to you, why don't you find your HOD, P or VP? Since you are a new teacher, you always have the access to a "not able to handle these kids well since I'm new!" LICENCE! Don't be afraid to tell them. After all, from the way you described, they really sound like some kind of monster released from the other part of the universe! I think even senior teachers will have a terrible time handling them! Find out what kind of a person your P is. If her mentality is "Ai Xin Jiao Yu", then try to work that way too. But I tell you, most of my old colleagues hate this kind, cos' when you spare the rod, you spoil the kids!
To those kids who try to harm their classmates, leave them to sit alone. Tell them the consequences of their actions in the most scariest and exaggerating way after scolding them! This works for me! I once told them the consequences of him pinching his classmate- I told this boy "the part you pinched will swell, then it will turn so red till your blood will ooze out. Then your classmate will have to be sent to the hospital. In the end, if it doesn't cure, you will lose your classmate, your classmate's parents will come after you!" They are so scared now that they don't dare do anything harmful in class!
To those kids who stand up and walk to you, tie them to their chair! Nope, just joking lah... try telling them in a nice way that that's not right. If they still don't listen, just ignore them the next time they try to get your attention. Soon, they will find you not fun to attract their attention anymore and their actions will fade away.......
But always remember these matters :
1)Don't beat them! No use getting ourselves into trouble. If they still don't think, then just ignore them. Anyway, Kexin, if we teach don't well, we still get paid!I'm not trying to discourage you from moulding the next generation of well-brought up beings, just that sometimes we need to think for ourselves too. We don't need to bring more problem to our lives when we already have so much of them right!?
2)Don't be frightened by them! Show them who is the boss in the class! Once they know, they will obey you! Don't cry in front of them! Not very use! Maybe the P5 or P6(not the whole class) will sympathize with you.
If all things fail...go back to point 1. We still get paid every month no matter how these brats torture our lives. Try to pretend you are angry, after all, they are just kids! Small kids! We can just "Fen Si" them so easily, and throw them into the Kallang River! HaHa...Don't need to become angry unnecessarily. Not worth it man!
All the above mentioned are true to what the auther has used but don't ever hold him responsible if your actions turned out to cause you more harm than good... = P
Shoo...SiAm!!!
MYKK san
* Saturday, July 09, 2005 *
hey guys... think i need ur advice on something...
classroom management....
my head is getting bigger n bigger by the day ....
by the 4 "heavenly kings" in my p1 class....
Ok let me tell u the whole situation now before asking u guys for suggestions:
1st king: he is the worst among the 4....
-when u scold him, he make faces at u.
-when u ask him to see u in the staff room, he runs away before your eyes.
-kept disturbing n tokking to others in class.. until an extent scolding, love, attention, punishment, caning, deduct marks etc oso no use....
-fight with his classmates
-not even afraid of calling his parents to school
-that time made one of the students "disappear" after school...cos he pulled the other student to the bb court and play... lied to me they got remedial lessons... until the other student's dad came to find me n say he is missing...
WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!
2nd king:
-walks around the class. but not ADHD. he just simply turn off during chinese lessons.
-ask him to sit before me oso no use.
-called his parents oso no use.
-like the 1st king, do anything oso no use.
-even stabbed his classmate with mechanical pencil in class.luckily not deep enough.
WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3rd king:
-hurts his classmates until police case before.
-like to use pencil...blade...etc to hurt himself.
-toks loudly in class... never listen in my lesson.
-disturb the rest.
-but like to earn points.
4th king: another headache...and heartache
-attention seeker.
-will stand up and walk to ur face telling u the answer.
if i ask him to sit down, he will grab my hand and wants me to listen till he's finished... which is juz lots of irrelevant rubbish.
-tried to scold him, deduct his points...entertain him...
but no use.
-never listen in class. will play with his coins..wallet...ask others to play with him before my nose.
-anything i tried oso to no use....
WHAT WHAT WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!
These little kids are making my heart aches like hell every night too...
haiz.. it's the 1st time i'm handling these not so normal kids, so i was wondering if i can get any useful suggestions from u pple...
the other colleagues seems to be doubting my ability in classroom management...
makes me feel uneasy to confide into them about these "happenings"...
only people i could turn to are u people...
see if u can help....thanks....
xin~ *low morale mood*
classroom management....
my head is getting bigger n bigger by the day ....
by the 4 "heavenly kings" in my p1 class....
Ok let me tell u the whole situation now before asking u guys for suggestions:
1st king: he is the worst among the 4....
-when u scold him, he make faces at u.
-when u ask him to see u in the staff room, he runs away before your eyes.
-kept disturbing n tokking to others in class.. until an extent scolding, love, attention, punishment, caning, deduct marks etc oso no use....
-fight with his classmates
-not even afraid of calling his parents to school
-that time made one of the students "disappear" after school...cos he pulled the other student to the bb court and play... lied to me they got remedial lessons... until the other student's dad came to find me n say he is missing...
WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!
2nd king:
-walks around the class. but not ADHD. he just simply turn off during chinese lessons.
-ask him to sit before me oso no use.
-called his parents oso no use.
-like the 1st king, do anything oso no use.
-even stabbed his classmate with mechanical pencil in class.luckily not deep enough.
WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3rd king:
-hurts his classmates until police case before.
-like to use pencil...blade...etc to hurt himself.
-toks loudly in class... never listen in my lesson.
-disturb the rest.
-but like to earn points.
4th king: another headache...and heartache
-attention seeker.
-will stand up and walk to ur face telling u the answer.
if i ask him to sit down, he will grab my hand and wants me to listen till he's finished... which is juz lots of irrelevant rubbish.
-tried to scold him, deduct his points...entertain him...
but no use.
-never listen in class. will play with his coins..wallet...ask others to play with him before my nose.
-anything i tried oso to no use....
WHAT WHAT WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!
These little kids are making my heart aches like hell every night too...
haiz.. it's the 1st time i'm handling these not so normal kids, so i was wondering if i can get any useful suggestions from u pple...
the other colleagues seems to be doubting my ability in classroom management...
makes me feel uneasy to confide into them about these "happenings"...
only people i could turn to are u people...
see if u can help....thanks....
xin~ *low morale mood*
* Friday, July 08, 2005 *
A letter to the self-claimed petty Ah Pek:
Finally... a long waited response from you...
felt both relieved and alittle upset....
relieved that you have chosen to share your burden with God,
and upset because this thing happened....
and it somehow shattered many hearts out there....of course,
this includes me too... and frozen our friendship for a couple of days before we received ur sms....
how should i say?
these days ... since that fateful night.... i've been anxiously wondering what happened to u...
how u feeling right now... are you better....
think i've bugged cindy till she's surrendering....ha...
wrote my apologies up here... yar... noe apologies dun help...
but i Want you to noe that i dun feel good either...
i think if one FTM member is upset or hurt,
the rest FTMians' hearts shattered too...
i wanted to meet u all that whole week.
for supper... for tok cok session... for movies... anything.
i guess it's the only motivation for me during that week!
wanted to tell u how my kids are n stuffs.
then on friday i received ur sms... saying u can only meet us after 9pm...
and i am already rotting in suntec since 3pm after the exhibition....
dunnoe what i should do??? go home or stay put n wait for u all??
suddenly felt lost... called chujie n she told me she's not coming...
then min oso dunnoe if she wants to meet me??
then i thought of the next day... weekends burnt becos of stupid staff day!!
more sian!!!
that's why i sms u guys... telling u i am not going...
but i am definitely not feeling good too!!!
after many days of wondering how u are... sending u sms and writing in ftm blog...
and not getting much response except that "peace wif u" and "share my burden wif god" sms...
i got disappointed.
more disappointed n both alittle angry when i saw ur blog.
esp. when u seemed to deny our efforts for the group becos i didn't show up on fri...
didn't expect such a big blowup over this "no-show" thing.
there's so many things i wanted to talk to u, but i couldn't.
wanted to empathise wif how u feeling. but i couldn't tok to u.
will u be willing to tok to me then?
this makes me feels that FTM foundation is only near zero.
and "motivated" me to write in my blog abt how i'm feeling...
why am i saying these things...??
hmm.. cos i don't want to tell u from a 3rd person...
at least let u understand... then put a full stop to it.
now it gives me the creeps whenever i make promises to people.
at least u let me learnt my lesson...
a rather painful one indeed.
at the expenses of almost losing a friendship i always valued...
maybe alittle more consideration, alittle more punctual, alittle more understanding,
and alittle more care and concern is FTM's motto for the year....
haa....
*joking* if sorry got use, need police for what!!!
hahaha!!!
told u i'm ONLY JOKING!!! *RUNS FOR LIFE*
~ the runaway monkey~ xin xin
Finally... a long waited response from you...
felt both relieved and alittle upset....
relieved that you have chosen to share your burden with God,
and upset because this thing happened....
and it somehow shattered many hearts out there....of course,
this includes me too... and frozen our friendship for a couple of days before we received ur sms....
how should i say?
these days ... since that fateful night.... i've been anxiously wondering what happened to u...
how u feeling right now... are you better....
think i've bugged cindy till she's surrendering....ha...
wrote my apologies up here... yar... noe apologies dun help...
but i Want you to noe that i dun feel good either...
i think if one FTM member is upset or hurt,
the rest FTMians' hearts shattered too...
i wanted to meet u all that whole week.
for supper... for tok cok session... for movies... anything.
i guess it's the only motivation for me during that week!
wanted to tell u how my kids are n stuffs.
then on friday i received ur sms... saying u can only meet us after 9pm...
and i am already rotting in suntec since 3pm after the exhibition....
dunnoe what i should do??? go home or stay put n wait for u all??
suddenly felt lost... called chujie n she told me she's not coming...
then min oso dunnoe if she wants to meet me??
then i thought of the next day... weekends burnt becos of stupid staff day!!
more sian!!!
that's why i sms u guys... telling u i am not going...
but i am definitely not feeling good too!!!
after many days of wondering how u are... sending u sms and writing in ftm blog...
and not getting much response except that "peace wif u" and "share my burden wif god" sms...
i got disappointed.
more disappointed n both alittle angry when i saw ur blog.
esp. when u seemed to deny our efforts for the group becos i didn't show up on fri...
didn't expect such a big blowup over this "no-show" thing.
there's so many things i wanted to talk to u, but i couldn't.
wanted to empathise wif how u feeling. but i couldn't tok to u.
will u be willing to tok to me then?
this makes me feels that FTM foundation is only near zero.
and "motivated" me to write in my blog abt how i'm feeling...
why am i saying these things...??
hmm.. cos i don't want to tell u from a 3rd person...
at least let u understand... then put a full stop to it.
now it gives me the creeps whenever i make promises to people.
at least u let me learnt my lesson...
a rather painful one indeed.
at the expenses of almost losing a friendship i always valued...
maybe alittle more consideration, alittle more punctual, alittle more understanding,
and alittle more care and concern is FTM's motto for the year....
haa....
*joking* if sorry got use, need police for what!!!
hahaha!!!
told u i'm ONLY JOKING!!! *RUNS FOR LIFE*
~ the runaway monkey~ xin xin
* My Apologies *
One week has past since i blow my top on you guys...
I have spoken to Wende and has clarified everything with him on Mon.He told me when we are free, I should meet up with all of you to clarify my position right now.Alot have gone through in my mind this period.I was saddened by Kexin's blog which told me how she felt about me after that Friday's events.Upon reading her blog,"Wo De Xin Zhen De Shou Shang Le"...I wanted to call Wende,Chujie and Cindy that night.But it was too late,probably everyone has slept.So I told myself I should forget about it,anyway,Kexin has told me before that sometimes what she blogged is actually more than what she really felt in her heart.I really hope it's the same when she said she was disappointed with me.Kexin,I don't blame you.If I was you,I may just think the same as you.You were probably mad with me(petty old ah pek!)I am sorry...
First of all,I apologise for blowing my top on Friday and allowing my blog to mislead everybody.Maybe that blog shouldn't have been written.Those thoughts were how I felt on that Sat's afternoon.They weren't all the reasons that made me blew my top on Fri.I think I have carried too much burden,haven't been giving them to God to carry.They have just weighed me so down that I can't breathe.Maybe that's why I just snapped on Fri.So when I was in Church on Sunday,I told God:"Nah,all my problems,I give them all to you..." I felt better,more at peace with myself,don't blame all the things that are going against me already...
Next...I think I really need to tell you guys why I was actually angry.Simple : I gave up going out with my mum to be with you guys.Last week,almost everyday,I have seen how Kexin was so enthusiastic about meeting up.So when Friday finally arrived,her "no-show"pissed me off.I blew my top.I know you tried to say "yes to meeting up" again after rejecting me,but I guess it was too late for you to redeem yourself.
I am not what you said,particular about how much returns I get when I give.I don't usually get angry when my friend has a last minute change of heart.I'll usually say,it's ok if you are tired! Let's meet when you are more energetic!I was not so angry with Chujie and Wende cos' I already know on Thu's night that we may not be able to meet them cos' they are going for a movie.And you know why I keep saying no to a movie?1-I am Broke.(I am only left with $40 in my bank since 27 Jun) 2-I thought chatting will be more fun. I just don't know why I was so disappointed,so upset.I really don't know why I was so affected.
From this incident,I know we haven't know each well enough.Yes,we are able to confide in each other.But we need to know each other more.This is unhealthy.When I'm down,I expect you guys to know how I feel and to react in a manner which I want.This incident obviously made me realise that's not the case.There was more misunderstandings after my blog was published.Lousy me,shouldn't have put that up.
Kexin,I know I'm petty,I know I shouldn't have blow my top,I know I'm wrong,please forgive me. Huimin,I know you tried to ask me out for coffee on Sat.But I needed a break,so I went JB.I needed to find peace with myself so that I can say to you guys-Peace Be With You.In fact, on Sat night,I was prepared to face all of you and say,I'm sorry.
This is just not enough.I need to tell you guys face to face and say I shouldn't have blew my top that day.I want to repent and I want to reconcile with all of you.Give me a chance ok?I cherish you all and I don't want this minor hicup to blow away our friendship.
One week has past since i blow my top on you guys...
I have spoken to Wende and has clarified everything with him on Mon.He told me when we are free, I should meet up with all of you to clarify my position right now.Alot have gone through in my mind this period.I was saddened by Kexin's blog which told me how she felt about me after that Friday's events.Upon reading her blog,"Wo De Xin Zhen De Shou Shang Le"...I wanted to call Wende,Chujie and Cindy that night.But it was too late,probably everyone has slept.So I told myself I should forget about it,anyway,Kexin has told me before that sometimes what she blogged is actually more than what she really felt in her heart.I really hope it's the same when she said she was disappointed with me.Kexin,I don't blame you.If I was you,I may just think the same as you.You were probably mad with me(petty old ah pek!)I am sorry...
First of all,I apologise for blowing my top on Friday and allowing my blog to mislead everybody.Maybe that blog shouldn't have been written.Those thoughts were how I felt on that Sat's afternoon.They weren't all the reasons that made me blew my top on Fri.I think I have carried too much burden,haven't been giving them to God to carry.They have just weighed me so down that I can't breathe.Maybe that's why I just snapped on Fri.So when I was in Church on Sunday,I told God:"Nah,all my problems,I give them all to you..." I felt better,more at peace with myself,don't blame all the things that are going against me already...
Next...I think I really need to tell you guys why I was actually angry.Simple : I gave up going out with my mum to be with you guys.Last week,almost everyday,I have seen how Kexin was so enthusiastic about meeting up.So when Friday finally arrived,her "no-show"pissed me off.I blew my top.I know you tried to say "yes to meeting up" again after rejecting me,but I guess it was too late for you to redeem yourself.
I am not what you said,particular about how much returns I get when I give.I don't usually get angry when my friend has a last minute change of heart.I'll usually say,it's ok if you are tired! Let's meet when you are more energetic!I was not so angry with Chujie and Wende cos' I already know on Thu's night that we may not be able to meet them cos' they are going for a movie.And you know why I keep saying no to a movie?1-I am Broke.(I am only left with $40 in my bank since 27 Jun) 2-I thought chatting will be more fun. I just don't know why I was so disappointed,so upset.I really don't know why I was so affected.
From this incident,I know we haven't know each well enough.Yes,we are able to confide in each other.But we need to know each other more.This is unhealthy.When I'm down,I expect you guys to know how I feel and to react in a manner which I want.This incident obviously made me realise that's not the case.There was more misunderstandings after my blog was published.Lousy me,shouldn't have put that up.
Kexin,I know I'm petty,I know I shouldn't have blow my top,I know I'm wrong,please forgive me. Huimin,I know you tried to ask me out for coffee on Sat.But I needed a break,so I went JB.I needed to find peace with myself so that I can say to you guys-Peace Be With You.In fact, on Sat night,I was prepared to face all of you and say,I'm sorry.
This is just not enough.I need to tell you guys face to face and say I shouldn't have blew my top that day.I want to repent and I want to reconcile with all of you.Give me a chance ok?I cherish you all and I don't want this minor hicup to blow away our friendship.
* Thursday, July 07, 2005 *
Missing??? Missing U...
Juz dropping by...hoping to read...hoping to hear...hoping to feel...
Hoping that everything is fine for u all...
Kinda of miz ya...
Juz dropping by...hoping to read...hoping to hear...hoping to feel...
Hoping that everything is fine for u all...
Kinda of miz ya...
Min\('?')/
* Wednesday, July 06, 2005 *
Weekend is over, not glad at all cos din really rested enough to recharge my battery... My energy level is going flat soon, but I will try to charge to full bar again.
Maybe i told some of u about my fateful day in sch last friday. Well, I fell down in front of my students again. This time not in a classroom but at BASKETBALL COURT! @#*&^??@ hahahahHAHAHAHAHAhahahahaha LAUGH IF U WANT TO, thou i felt embarassed but it was quite funny, think about it i also want to laugh.
I saw some1 i m looking for then i ran towards her, i don know why, i din tripped on anything, but i just fell. the pose was a good one indeed, to prevent myself from falling, i bent my knees first, which means my knee touch the ground first. The position was a kneeling position, get the picture? I was so malu, and quickly got up. A few of my stdts saw it and they laugh at me then some even tried to imitate me!!! wat have i gotten myself into??? i m not angry with them of cos! kids are kids, i laugh at myself too... stdts from the second floor saw it and they shouted to me, "zhang lao shi, ni gang cai die dao a, hao qiu wo?" THANKS!!!
Maybe i told some of u about my fateful day in sch last friday. Well, I fell down in front of my students again. This time not in a classroom but at BASKETBALL COURT! @#*&^??@ hahahahHAHAHAHAHAhahahahaha LAUGH IF U WANT TO, thou i felt embarassed but it was quite funny, think about it i also want to laugh.
I saw some1 i m looking for then i ran towards her, i don know why, i din tripped on anything, but i just fell. the pose was a good one indeed, to prevent myself from falling, i bent my knees first, which means my knee touch the ground first. The position was a kneeling position, get the picture? I was so malu, and quickly got up. A few of my stdts saw it and they laugh at me then some even tried to imitate me!!! wat have i gotten myself into??? i m not angry with them of cos! kids are kids, i laugh at myself too... stdts from the second floor saw it and they shouted to me, "zhang lao shi, ni gang cai die dao a, hao qiu wo?" THANKS!!!
Reported by the Forever Clumsy
Ah Bao
* Sunday, July 03, 2005 *
Somewhere Out There
Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight
Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there
And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true
~xin~
我们可不可以不勇敢？
当爱太累 梦太乱 没有答案。
勇敢了太久，突然想放下一切的一切，逃得远远的，
是不是？
到一个没有人认识的地方也好，
到一个可以忘记烦恼的地方，是不是就可以快乐许多？
是不是就可以远离烦恼？
在你坚强的外表下，我看见了那个正在慢慢瓦解的灵魂。
一点一滴的失去了自己，
我知道你想要暂时放纵自己。
做一个任性的孩子，什么责任也不想再承担。
只想做个快乐飞翔的天使，不想再为了别人而活着。
你累了。
是时候，好好的为自己而活了。
可我知道，我们总是希望为自己而活，
到头来，还是免不了要活在别人的影子之下。
只要你认识到人生是多么的荒谬，也许，你可以活得轻松很多。
只要你明白我们不可能百分之百的为自己而活着，
我想。。。 你便可以解脱。
我可以让你放纵自己，放纵情绪。
可是，我希望你不要否定生命。
更不要否定周围关心你得人。
你一定要坚强。
虽然说这句话很简单，但我知道做起来很难。
尤其是当你想放弃自己的时候。
可是，我认识的你，是一定能够做到的吧。
想要逃避的时候，你可以逃得远远的。
我们不会成为你的困扰。
但是，当你想回来的时候，我们永远会张开双手给你一个大大的拥抱。
我们从来也没有离开过你的身边半步，
希望你也不要把我们推得太远。
远得。。。我们快看不见你了，好不好？
我们要做你一辈子的朋友。陪你哭也好。
陪你笑也好。陪你去做你想做的事情。
陪你一起流泪。
陪你一同看看明天的每个日出，让你看见明天也可以很美好。
我们一定可以的。
答应我。
当爱太累 梦太乱 没有答案。
勇敢了太久，突然想放下一切的一切，逃得远远的，
是不是？
到一个没有人认识的地方也好，
到一个可以忘记烦恼的地方，是不是就可以快乐许多？
是不是就可以远离烦恼？
在你坚强的外表下，我看见了那个正在慢慢瓦解的灵魂。
一点一滴的失去了自己，
我知道你想要暂时放纵自己。
做一个任性的孩子，什么责任也不想再承担。
只想做个快乐飞翔的天使，不想再为了别人而活着。
你累了。
是时候，好好的为自己而活了。
可我知道，我们总是希望为自己而活，
到头来，还是免不了要活在别人的影子之下。
只要你认识到人生是多么的荒谬，也许，你可以活得轻松很多。
只要你明白我们不可能百分之百的为自己而活着，
我想。。。 你便可以解脱。
我可以让你放纵自己，放纵情绪。
可是，我希望你不要否定生命。
更不要否定周围关心你得人。
你一定要坚强。
虽然说这句话很简单，但我知道做起来很难。
尤其是当你想放弃自己的时候。
可是，我认识的你，是一定能够做到的吧。
想要逃避的时候，你可以逃得远远的。
我们不会成为你的困扰。
但是，当你想回来的时候，我们永远会张开双手给你一个大大的拥抱。
我们从来也没有离开过你的身边半步，
希望你也不要把我们推得太远。
远得。。。我们快看不见你了，好不好？
我们要做你一辈子的朋友。陪你哭也好。
陪你笑也好。陪你去做你想做的事情。
陪你一起流泪。
陪你一同看看明天的每个日出，让你看见明天也可以很美好。
我们一定可以的。
答应我。
* Saturday, July 02, 2005 *
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$39/++ per session???
TOO EXPENSIVE???
OK OK!!
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PLUS!!!!!!
Lim Huimin, jue dui superstar, shall sing song to you!!!!
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* Friday, July 01, 2005 *
Yesterday i missed out F.T.M channel @ msn and i felt so UPSET!!!!
Arghs!!!
Esp when Chujie told me you all were glad i wasn't there!!!!!!!!
Yupz..... that did broke my fragile heart quite badly.
F.T.Mians!!!!!!!!
How can u all say that !!!!!
hahaha...... but Okie lah you all are forgiven.
Cos i love you all!
hiak hiak. *sweat*
SO SO!! What ba gua did u all tok about?? Huh Huh??
Hahaha.....Can update update abit??
These days my work has been hectic:
busy adapting, busy entertaining stupid parents,
busy chasing after the ADHD kid, busy marking,
busy doing duties, busy attending courses...
to be truthful, i suddenly felt that the 2yrs in NIE has been a long honeymoon for me!!!
Now i'm in hell so HELP ME!!!!
hahaha.......
1st day of teaching i was like : HUH? WHY AM I HERE?
2nd day of teaching i was like : Ok, so i'm a teacher! Now what's next??
3rd day of teaching i was like : OH NO!!!!! WHY AM I HERE!!!!!
WHY WHY WHY!!!!!
4th day of teaching i was like : Okie, so now it feels like one year has passed..... (birds flew past and years have passed.... i have aged!!!!!!!!!!!!)
5th day of teaching i was like : OH THANKS ALL THE GOD OUT THERE. TOMORO IS FINALLY SATURDAY.
THEN!
*BING BIANG BING*!!!!!! (Sounds of breaking heart)
I realised.......... TOMORO IS STAFF OUTING DAY..............
WHAT A GOOD AND ENTERTAINING LIFE I AM LEADING NOW ISN'T IT?
OH
I
M
SO
GLAD
I
JOIN
THIS
CAREER.
YEAH LIKE REAL.
hahaha!!!!!!!!!
*JUZ DRANK RIBENA MODE* =p
Arghs!!!
Esp when Chujie told me you all were glad i wasn't there!!!!!!!!
Yupz..... that did broke my fragile heart quite badly.
F.T.Mians!!!!!!!!
How can u all say that !!!!!
hahaha...... but Okie lah you all are forgiven.
Cos i love you all!
hiak hiak. *sweat*
SO SO!! What ba gua did u all tok about?? Huh Huh??
Hahaha.....Can update update abit??
These days my work has been hectic:
busy adapting, busy entertaining stupid parents,
busy chasing after the ADHD kid, busy marking,
busy doing duties, busy attending courses...
to be truthful, i suddenly felt that the 2yrs in NIE has been a long honeymoon for me!!!
Now i'm in hell so HELP ME!!!!
hahaha.......
1st day of teaching i was like : HUH? WHY AM I HERE?
2nd day of teaching i was like : Ok, so i'm a teacher! Now what's next??
3rd day of teaching i was like : OH NO!!!!! WHY AM I HERE!!!!!
WHY WHY WHY!!!!!
4th day of teaching i was like : Okie, so now it feels like one year has passed..... (birds flew past and years have passed.... i have aged!!!!!!!!!!!!)
5th day of teaching i was like : OH THANKS ALL THE GOD OUT THERE. TOMORO IS FINALLY SATURDAY.
THEN!
*BING BIANG BING*!!!!!! (Sounds of breaking heart)
I realised.......... TOMORO IS STAFF OUTING DAY..............
WHAT A GOOD AND ENTERTAINING LIFE I AM LEADING NOW ISN'T IT?
OH
I
M
SO
GLAD
I
JOIN
THIS
CAREER.
YEAH LIKE REAL.
hahaha!!!!!!!!!
*JUZ DRANK RIBENA MODE* =p
No Time
Wow! 4 days have passed since the dreaded "Back to School..Sian" haunted us. God has been kind to me this week. Even if Friday sucks, I shouldn't complain too much. How have you been my dear FTMians? I am having a "Blog Overdose"!!! Just mentioned in my own blog about having no time for so many things that are still waiting for me to be accomplished! What are they?
1>my work review(has been lying "dunno where" since Apr??!!)
2>1421(a book about Cheng Ho)
3>checking the details of my wedding dinner's agreement
4>calling up the church regarding Cindy's baptism cert
5>arranging a date for my lesson observation with my HOD(trying to avoid her these days, irrating woman!)
6>discussing with my colleague about 21 July's Cultural Awareness Week 7>taking more pictures of my pugs! (realised I dun have their family photos!!!)
8>watching "Ghost Train"(think it's ending soon...)
9>catching up my buddies,ie. sec school friends !
10>Many many more things undone!
Today finally saw the cheerful and relax side of Cindy! Why? Cos' her interview went so well! Haven't heard that for a long time!(or have i even heard any??) Thursday was long and tired but at the end of it, all the tiredness was killed off by Cindy's smooth sailing day and her mum's much improved health conditions! Hope to see her happy everyday!
Last but not the least, to you FTMians, if this week has not been too kind to you, remember that at least you know you are still breathing the same air as me, waking up to the same sunshine everyday! Let's get HIGH tm!!
Ratings for my week : 8/10
Wow! 4 days have passed since the dreaded "Back to School..Sian" haunted us. God has been kind to me this week. Even if Friday sucks, I shouldn't complain too much. How have you been my dear FTMians? I am having a "Blog Overdose"!!! Just mentioned in my own blog about having no time for so many things that are still waiting for me to be accomplished! What are they?
1>my work review(has been lying "dunno where" since Apr??!!)
2>1421(a book about Cheng Ho)
3>checking the details of my wedding dinner's agreement
4>calling up the church regarding Cindy's baptism cert
5>arranging a date for my lesson observation with my HOD(trying to avoid her these days, irrating woman!)
6>discussing with my colleague about 21 July's Cultural Awareness Week 7>taking more pictures of my pugs! (realised I dun have their family photos!!!)
8>watching "Ghost Train"(think it's ending soon...)
9>catching up my buddies,ie. sec school friends !
10>Many many more things undone!
Today finally saw the cheerful and relax side of Cindy! Why? Cos' her interview went so well! Haven't heard that for a long time!(or have i even heard any??) Thursday was long and tired but at the end of it, all the tiredness was killed off by Cindy's smooth sailing day and her mum's much improved health conditions! Hope to see her happy everyday!
Last but not the least, to you FTMians, if this week has not been too kind to you, remember that at least you know you are still breathing the same air as me, waking up to the same sunshine everyday! Let's get HIGH tm!!
Ratings for my week : 8/10