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* Friday, June 24, 2005 *
4 keXIN >>didn't know you are going thru so many problems. but last night before me n Cindy left De & Jie place, you seems troubled by the present. really don't know how to help or console you at that moment. first and foremost, i think your tie with HQ should just be put aside or burn in the incinerator! school is starting, there's bound to be bump here and there. it's just normal. the challenge is huge, but don't look at it like a high mountain, but look at it like a small pebble. just do things that are only in front of you, don't look at what's behind that thing. talk about work, i am also not in the right frame of mind to start work, really hope i can just take half a year of no pay leave just to breakaway.(reminds me of kelly clarkson's breakaway! haaa..) So many things have happened in these 2 months and many more to come in the later half of this year. I need to break free! I am still sore with some people in the school. I need a new challenge. but not in this school, esp. with my kind of HOD. as for your tie with your mum, take it slowly to repair whatever misunderstanding or feud the both of you have created. try to put yourself in her shoe, try to understand why she sees you in some ways which you dislikes. it is hard for our Zhang Bei to change their mindset because of how they have been brought up in closed society. but it is easier for us, young people, living in this modern and rapidly changing society, to suit and accept others' ideas. she's afterall your mum, who brought u up and will still be your mum even when u are 40,60 or even 100 years old!
I'm glad F.T.M existed and can be a pillar of strength whenever our souls are weak and unstable. we will walk on together, we can reach there(our goals whatever there are!), we are the world!! Oopss.. should be We Are F.T.M !!! till eternity.